Stan’s Corner, Wednesday, September 14, 2011

I was inspired, recently, by this short reading from a book called, Courage to Change:  “As we let go of obsession, worry, and focusing on everyone but ourselves, many of us were bewildered by the increasing calmness of our minds.  We knew how to live in a state of crisis, but it often took a bit of adjustment to become comfortable with stillness.  The price of serenity was the quieting of the constant mental chatter that had taken up so much time; suddenly we had lots of time on our hands and we wondered how to fill it.

Having become more and more serene as a result of working the Al-Anon program, I was surprised to find myself still grabbing for old fears as if I wanted to remain in crisis.  I realized that I didn’t know how to feel safe unless I was mentally busy.  When I worried, I felt involved—and therefore somewhat in control.

As an exercise, my Sponsor suggested that I try to maintain my inner stillness even when I felt scared or doubtful.  As I did so, I reassured myself again and again that I was safely in the care of a Power greater than myself.  Today I know that sanity and serenity are the gifts I have received for my efforts and my faith.  With practice, I am learning to trust the peace.”  Note: I have been going to Al-Anon for almost four years now, in order to better deal with my son who is a recovering alcoholic.